Here Go Some More Questions

12. What is the way you often sabotage yourself?

Well, I have mastered the art of convincing myself not to do things. "You don't NEED to go to work today, nothing ever happens there anyways"; "You don't NEED to go to this interview, you didn't really want to work here anyways" (sadly these two are recurring statements). I'm getting better at proceeding to then convince myself I am foolish and should take care my responsibilities, although I do still have some slip ups from time to time. Talk about a bad habit I need to break, I don't think after college this method will work.

13. Who would you like to please the most.

The obvious answer would be myself, but despite what many may think I'm not that selfish. I think the two people I want to please are my parents. I want them to be able to forget about the endless amount of time, money, and energy they put into me because they are so pleased with the way I turned out. I know that if I ever told them this they would think I'm stupid for even suggesting that they wouldn't be pleased with their only daughter, but that's my heart right there. I'll do anything for them, I want to make them more proud, even more pleased, and even happier than I already make them.

There is also someone else that I want to please, but that goes without saying. I don't really like to get into religion a lot (like all my relationships it is a very private matter to me), but at the end of the day I do want to please my Maker. For everything is possible through Him, and I want to lead a life that is pleasing to Him. It may not appear that way sometimes (maybe more often than not) but looks are deceiving, let's just leave it at that.

14. What do you think a stranger's first impression of you would be?

Depending on the setting it could be an array of things, so I decided since I have nothing better to do (Note: I am not a bum, I just currently have NO customers at the Ticket Office right now.) I will consider a few different scenarios

Walking around campus: No matter what kind of day I'm having (sweats day v. I actually woke up early and got dressed) most people would assume I am some beast on the track team because I just so happen to wear my special athlete backpack every day. I was told in high school that I look intimidating, so I guess some people probably assume that when they see me walking on campus. Especially when I'm with people I know, and even more so on a bad day (I'm not that girl that smiles when she walks, if I'm mad you can tell)

On the track: Most people just think I am a pretty girl that just so happens to run track. They're right in their assumption, occasionally I run across people that think I am about to kill my competition. and while some of the time they are correct, often times I fail to meet their standards, one day I will prove them right. I kind of like that about me though, I guess it has a lot to do with me being competitive. I got my game face on, I just need the performance to match it.

At a party/club/anytime I feel like stepping out: This is my favorite time, the things I hear are priceless. Girls usually are hating on me, assuming I'm some easy girl. In my opinion they're just mad because I'm wearing the mess out of some dress, or because I run things, or maybe both. Real girls usually think I'm about something, and 9 times out of 10 we can vibe with each other for the night. So I guess that would mean they think I'm cool people. As for the dudes, they are generally intrigued. Unfortunately, half of them assume I'm just another girl they can run game on, while the other half mistake me for the girl of their dreams. Either way, both assumptions are wrong. Believe me, it takes more than one glance to really know who I am.

I guess I should also know that 99% of the time I will in fact be a little (sometimes a lot) on. And for the people who only see me in party settings, they have me entirely figured out all wrong. There IS a side of me that doesn't involve drugs, sex, and alcohol.