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Okay, so I am currently at work so I guess I will get back at this whole questionnaire thing.

7. If you could change your appearance, how would you decide to look.

Well I am pretty satisfied with the way I look now so really it would only be a matter of correcting a few minor flaws. Take for instance my skin, unlike the girls who would probably go as much as to change the color of their skin, I would simply want mine to be all one color. So if that means that I will be a shade darker so be it, I just want my feet to look like they belong to my body. Another thing I would change is my hair (no not the hair on my head, I LOVE my natural hair although I wouldn't mind a personal stylist to do my hair whenever it needs attention) I'm really referring to my body hair. I would love to go without picking up a razor, wax strip, or tweezer ever again. Also, my teeth, can't forget those. I would love for them to just stay as they are without having to wear those horrid retainers every night. And finally, would it be too much to ask if I could maybe grow a few inches, I hear 5'7 is a nice height :)

8. What color dominates your wardrobe? How do you feel when you wear that color? Why?

I have a pretty even amount of each color, so I'll just pretend this says what article of clothing. In that case, my answer is mini dress. Yes, I am a fan, a big fan. I mean Beyonce said "If you got it flaunt it", and well that's exactly what I do. I feel just as good as I look in them. I'm not trying to be conceited but it's the truth. It's something about putting on a dress that hugs you in all the right places, accentuating the natural curves of your body. Pair that with some bomb heels and you're already the baddest chick in the room.

9. What song do you sing only when you are alone? What memory does it bring back?

I find myself belting out Bill Withers "Lean On Me" from time to time. Why you may ask, well because it was the song of choice at Mass in High School. Also, after I graduated I had a brief moment where I wished I could sing and performed that song in front of my class for graduation after attending Diamond Ranch's graduation and seeing some girl perform a song I can't remember the name to. But no one will ever, ever hear me sing that song like I do when I am alone. Oh and by the way, I kill it every time ;)

10. Who do you secretly envy? Why?

I secretly envy the girl that can put her sexuality on display for the world to see. No, I don't mean sexual orientation, I mean sexuality (there's a difference). Matters like that personally make me uncomfortable, but shout out to the girls that feel comfortable enough to do so. I love me some me, but I would never be able to put myself on display. I commend those girls for their bravery and display of confidence... but that's about it.

11. What do you really want? But really...

What I want is to graduate from USC with honors, I want to find a well-paying job right out of college. However, if I don't find one immediately, I have a back-up plan. I want to spend the summer traveling the world. In the fall, I want to start graduate school at Georgetown or NYU (I won't be upset if USC accepts me either, I would want to do the program that is in London and Los Angeles). So somewhere along this journey I want to fall in love. But I don't want to fall in love with just anyone, I want to fall in love with someone that is a star in their own right (a real one works too). Of course he will be just as beautiful on the outside as he is on the inside. And I want him to love me, all of me. I want him to thank God every day for sending me to him. I want us to live a fabulous life, traveling the world during our whirlwind romance. I want to be so in love that I have my dream wedding. I want him to give me the most beautiful kids, and I want us to live happily ever after. And when I say that, I mean I want it to be complete with my very own castle, and an entire empire that we rule over as King and Queen.

Okay, so maybe that's not exactly how my life will go, but the question asked me what I want. All I am doing is being honest. But aside from all the material things, I just want to be able to look back at my life and be happy with what I've done with it. And God forbid that I am unhappy, I want to realize it early enough that I can make the proper adjustments so that I can be happy.

Of course I can go on and on about what I want for my family, my community, my country, my world, but in the words of Ghandi, I believe that you must "Be the chnage you wish to see in the world". In order for me to do that, I need to figure out what I want for myself to be that living change I wish to see.